I am only half way of having her in my arms, and I now know that I will need to stay as calm as possible for the next 4 months. I already feel the pain growing on me. Not only physically, but also mentally. The lonelyness, to know that I can't go outside for a walk.. That's worse then I thought, but it's worth it.
Even just going at the grocery store for few things took me more than an hour, and I was feeling like I was going to pass out. I don't have much energy anymore, and my nights are only a time that I pass in the dark looking at those walls that are around me all day long.
I know it's worth it, and I really love this little life growing in me..
But then, why do I feel like I am slowly loosing myself and becoming only a shadow.
This is not her life that I put in cause, but my attitude and my feelings. People around me keep saying that it must be fun to rest at home all day, not cleaning anything and just staying in bed. Well I have news for you guys. This is not fun. I am suppose to be the most happier person in the world right now, but is it really fun and enjoyable to be happy alone? Between those four walls that I see all day long?
This is the questions I am trying to answer since all of that began.
So, my little sweet heart, let your time arrive and come in my arms, like that we will can enjoy life together <3